Songs » Desiderado

Cantando una historia encuentro en mi memoria, la noche de la luna y pienso yo ahora en tí.
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A collection of mementos including a scrapbook, a compass, a NASA patch, a shell, a coin, and other assorted items.
Cantando una historia
Encuentro en mi memoria
La noche de la luna
Y pienso yo ahora
En tí

La luna nueva llama
La luz para su cama
El cielo es oscuro
Tres días solo dura
Sin tí
Sin tí. Sin tí.

Desiderado. Desiderado.
Desiderado, estoy ahora,
Desde la hora
Que me fuí
Que me fuí. Que me fuí.

Fue una temporada
Distante y ya dejada
Con sueños e intenciones
Por fin de regresarme
A quí

No queria abandonarte
No quise extranarte
Dulce era esa vida
Por la muerte interrumpida
Sin tí.
Sin tí. Sin tí.

Desiderado. Desiderado.
Desiderado, estoy ahora,
Desde la hora
Que me fuí
Que me fuí. Que me fuí.

Desesperado
Desilusionado
Desiderado sin tu cariño
Desesperado
Desilusionado
Desiderado sin tí.

Songs » Hard on the Soul

Right on the money, hard on the soul.
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Kai is humorously caught behind bars.
As I sit here fading I'm waiting to show
Feelings inside me with no place to go
They'll never hide; we'll never know

Right on the money. Hard on the Soul.

With every good face that I'm willing to show
Hades inside me is free to let go
And when it decides outside me to grow...

Yes, I've thought of the good and the love that could be
Behind ivory bars I was too blind to see
The prisoner of my thoughts that I had come to be

As I look around at all we have done
Poisoned the water, blocked out the sun
I want to believe in the truths they have spun
I want to believe we can still carry on
They say it so right, why is it so wrong?

Right on the money. Hard on the Soul.

Songs » I’ll Never See Her Again

I’ll never see my mother again. I only wanted to say goodbye before she died.
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A woman holds her son's hand as they walk in silhouette before a golden sunset.
(Teddy's Song)

I'll never see her again
I'll never see my mother again
I only wanted to say goodbye
Before she died

I'll never see her again

I was ten years old when daddy died
But I never thought it would happen to her.
How did I lose both of them?

Now I am really alone.
I want a brother, or a sister—
someone to share the pain.
'Cause I'll never get used to it.

I'm just a boy; I'm just a kid.
What was it that I did?
When will I wake up from this?
Won't someone call a halt?
And tell me this is all a joke?

Won't someone call a halt?
And tell me this is not my fault?
Bring back my mother—
Give back my mother to me.

Songs » Inner, Inner Ear

Speak to me in words I cannot hear, And hear the music… unmistakably clear.
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Kai stands before a leaded stained glass mosaic window, gazing upward.
In the evening when the lights of the city
Look like stars shining from afar,
I hear the voice of my heart
I look around, and only hear my piano.

Listening to the music I am sitting
Watching my hands play a melody.
They move alone, I can't even misguide them.
So who gives them the directions that they hear?
They listen—oh, they listen through the Inner Inner Ear.

How I wish that I could hear the Inner Inner Inner Ear.
I'd be safe, and I'd be near.
If I could listen, I would hear.

Now I'm standing in the face of too many choices,
Everything is hazy and unclear.
The rules are changing, the lines are full of voices,
Speak to me in words I cannot hear.
Listen—oh, listen through the Inner Inner Ear,
And hear the music… unmistakably clear.

Songs » Melancholy Lady

The day is fading, What’s the use in waiting anymore?
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A field of flowers
Tell me Melancholy Lady
Why do you not come out in the rain?
Looking through your window pane
You really ought to play the game
Do it once and maybe you’ll do it again.
Wander in.

Once there was a man who said he
Wouldn’t ever be caught upon a cloud.
With both feet on the ground,
He stood and watched the world go 'round
Melancholy, watching the merry-go-round
Go ‘round and ‘round.

Melancholy Lady
The day is fading
What's the use in waiting anymore?

So Melancholy Lady maybe
There is something we could sing about.
It's okay to hold on,
It's all right to let go.
Take a chance today ‘cause that is what
It’s all about.

Melancholy Lady (Sugar Sugar)
The day is fading (Ah, honey honey)
What's the use in waiting anymore?
(You are my candy girl)

Songs » My Misery

I don’t want to let it go, it feels so familiar and comfy, like an old bathrobe.
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Kai in his studio pensively gazing out the window.
I love my misery, it keeps me company 
I like my misery, it's a big part of me.

I love my misery so much I don't want to let it go
It feels so familiar and comfy like an old bathrobe.

Helpful advice would be nice but the price of heeding it
Is too many times it serves to remind me I needed it.

I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't complain,
Don't know what I'd do if I had to refrain.
What if I couldn't be a pain
And make your life miserable too?

As far as I can see there's no better way to be than miserable.
From my head to my toes I'm just one mega-dose of self-pity.

I love my misery, it keeps me company
I stand by my misery and it—stands by me.

Take your misfortune and suffering
Keep your frustration and grief
Your angst and anxiety, sorrow and pain,
Keep them away from me.
I just want my misery!

I've got my misery, we have a deal.
No matter my state it will commiserate with how I feel.

Yes, I love my misery so much I don't wanna let it go,
I stand by my misery—
I stand by my misery and it—stands by me.

Songs » The Choice We Made

Our whole lives lay out ahead of us, there was only one thing to do.
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A pink sunset seen from a darkened cliffside at the ocean.
A golden sunset seen from a coastal roadside.
We'd do it again: one man's reflection on one couple's decision to have an abortion. 

I always hoped that I would someday hear from you again.
Though destiny broke us apart before we reached the end,
It's nice to know you're doing well, I guess I am too.
Do you think about those days at all? I sure think of you.

The choice we had to make, we never knew.

Our first night together, we threw caution to the wind,
A love child was in the air, before our love was born.
After all these years, our one unspoken truth:
Someone might have been, we both remember who.

The choice we had to make so soon.

Our love was young, just me and you
So little time to think it through
Our whole lives lay out ahead of us
There was only one thing to do.

The deed was done. We carried on, forgetting to remember
What needed to be spoken was never really mentioned.
And though our love was not enough, and we broke up instead,
The choice we made was right—
And if we had to do it all again,
We'd choose the same, and we'd do it again.

Songs » This is Your Life

Another day goes by, yesterday won’t come again. This is your life, my friend.
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Kai climbs a tree and stands on a low branch.
A still life photo of a table setting with a vase of lilies and a bowl of cherries with a sign that says, "Life."
This is your life 
Where to begin?
Another day goes by
Yesterday won't come again.
This is your life, my friend
Yeah, my friend. Oh yeah.

Time is long
When love is strong
It is that time again
Will women weep, then so will men
This is your life, my friend
Yeah, my friend. Oh yeah. My friend. Oh yeah.

I've seen 'em lose
I've seen 'em win
I've watched sweet days go by
To every day there is an end
This is your life!
This is your life!
This is your life, my friend.

Songs » Two Timin’ Man

He’ll tell you just what you wanna hear.
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Kai holds out his hat before a leafy background of brightly lit tree canopy.
He's got the stone
You've got the ring
He holds the ace
You got the queen.
He won't allow ya' get-you get-your while's worth
He won't allow ya' get-you get-your while's worth

He’s an old timer, one-timin’, two-timin’ man
He’s an old timer, one-timin’, two-timin’ man

You've got the dope
He's got the stash
You'd better get up while
You've got the chance
He'll never let you get your money's worth
He'll never let you get your money's worth

He's an old timer, one-timin'
Two-timin' man.
Yeah, he's an old timer, one-timin'
Two-timin' man.

Bring you up slow
Let you down fast
Smoother than velvet
Truer than trash
He’ll tell you just what you wanna hear
He'll tell you anything what you wanna hear

‘Cause he's an old timer, one-timin'
Two-timin' man.
Yeah, he's an old timer, one-timin'
Two-timin' man.
Two-timin’ man
Two-timin’ man