Songs

Kai plays the guitar in his studio with ethereal background light.
A portrait of Kai looking out into the distance.

Bad Feeling

I’ve got a bad feeling you don’t want me anymore.

Kai sits on the bleachers before a bright blue background and white star on a cloudy day.

Blue Sky Blues

I long for rainy days in California.
Running water on my window. Awaken me, oh, chill of winter.

Oranges growing on the tree with warm sunlight through the leaves.

California

I was a young man back in 1975. There was something I had to find, so I took a chance and came out west.

A collection of mementos including a scrapbook, a compass, a NASA patch, a shell, a coin, and other assorted items.

Desiderado

Cantando una historia encuentro en mi memoria, la noche de la luna y pienso yo ahora en tí.

A white house catches the late afternoon light.

End of the Summer

It hasn’t been easy to watch your demise. You’ve wasted your body. You’ve locked up your mind.

A photo of the front of a home with steps going up to the door under a covered portico.

Found My Way Back Home

I’ve toiled in the sun and I’ve walked in the rain. Now I’ve found my way back home.

A fundraising musical event for Camp De Benneville Pines with Lesley Kernochan.

Garden Concert

Garden Concert Fundraiser for Camp De Benneville Pines featuring Kai Landauer with Lesley Kernochan.

LB crouches to touch the wet sand at the beach with a pier in the background.

Goodbye My Friend

And that’s when you started drinking, just to keep yourself from thinking, ’bout Vietnam, and what it did to you.

Kai is humorously caught behind bars.

Hard on the Soul

Feelings inside me with no place to go. They’ll never hide, we’ll never know.

A smiling photo of Kai wearing a cancer survivor t-shirt holding up a red balloon.

How Good it Feels

On the island of Cancer you live without a song. Some make it home, some don’t live very long.

iconic view of statue of liberty from below

I Believe in You

Hello mother, the land and the water, your sons and your daughters, and all of our struggles.

A portrait of Kai, expressionless, with light streaming from above.

I Can Feel the Darkness

I’ve been living a lie for much too long now. Muddy water running through my brain to my soul.

A woman holds her son's hand as they walk in silhouette before a golden sunset.

I’ll Never See Her Again

I’ll never see my mother again. I only wanted to say goodbye before she died.

volcanic rock formation used by the Northern Sierra Miwok to grind acorns for food

Indian Roses

They were coming to behold, and reminisce the time of old. Underneath the Indian Roses was the gold.

Kai stands before a leaded stained glass mosaic window, gazing upward.

Inner, Inner Ear

Speak to me in words I cannot hear, And hear the music… unmistakably clear.

an empty desert highway appears as if it goes on forever into the horizon

Lonesome I Am Leaving

Something I once said to you is coming back to me: Changing for the sake of change will never make you free.

A wooden bird figure sits on table covered by a red floral cloth.

Marian

Marian you loved me and I just played it cool, a little too cool. You’d already left before I knew I really did love you.

A field of flowers

Melancholy Lady

The day is fading, What’s the use in waiting anymore?

Kai in his studio pensively gazing out the window.

My Misery

I love my misery so much I don’t want to let it go, it feels so familiar and comfy like an old bathrobe.

A couple loosely interlocks fingers against a red ocean sunset background.

Never Stopped Loving You

What are the chances I would see you here today? My flight delayed on account of rain.

Kai waters a young seedling enclosed in a chicken wire mesh guard.

Nice to Know

I’ve understood the new arrangement. You are different, I’m the same. But I’m gonna…love you anyway.

Vivid orange flowers with dark green foliage at the community garden.

No Matter How Much

Your love is a spring that is warm to the touch. Your love wasn’t wasted, no matter how much.

A pomegranate fruit ripening on the tree.

Nobody’s Fool

Ain’t nobody who’s nobody’s fool. Sing out the old, bring in the new, someone else is loving you.

A dapper dark portrait of Kai in mocha tones.

Rainy Day Lover

He’s come a long way since the time when he couldn’t say what was on his mind.

a heart made out of barbed wire fence on a misty morning

Remember Darling

Love me while the time is right. Leave now and I’ll dream of you tonight.

Kai appears with his back to the camera, wearing a cancer survivor t-shirt, adjusting his headphones.

Rest of My Life

How long must I walk upon the wire? How long ’til I fall into the fire?

Kai plays the guitar with an intense look at the pier on a cloudy day.

Rhythm to the End

Destiny is once again tugging at my sleeve, and when I leave, I want you all to pray for me.

With his back to the camera, Kai gazes outward to a see traces of sunlight struggling through a cloudy sky.

Something Between Us

Please don’t fall in love with me. If you do, I could not keep myself from falling in love with you.

A golden sunset seen from a coastal roadside.

The Choice We Made

We’d do it again: one man’s reflection on one couple’s decision to have an abortion.

Fog blankets a California street lined with palm trees.

The Fog

In my mind. Troubles. Bring me down. In the fog I cannot see.

Kai and LB take a selfie together in front of an airplane.

The Hardest Thing

Now, thirty years have passed. There’s been a lot of rain. I survived the earthquake, you the hurricane.

Kai climbs a tree and stands on a low branch.

This is Your Life

Another day goes by, yesterday won’t come again. This is your life, my friend.

Kai holds out his hat before a leafy background of brightly lit tree canopy.

Two Timin’ Man

You’ve got the dope, he’s got the stash, you’d better get up while you’ve got the chance.

Kai with LB holding guitars.

Waiting for You

I listen to the rhythm of the cars on the streets in the city. Alone on the avenue, waiting for you.